一直被說我怎麼這麼在意,可是我還是沒辦法釋懷。上課的其中一件很重要的收穫,就是更認識自己,經過了幾次的課程,主管說出了讓我在意的評語,自我中心,He said it's my"Personal Style" and I can' do nothing to change it. what i should do is to try to reduce the damage it can cause.
At first i tried to defend myself, desperately, i don't see myself self-centered. Instead, i care about people, not only friends, of course i care them the most, but people i knew, even strangers in the street... I do care about this society, maybe I'm not great enough or passionate enough to change anything, but i do care.
Then again, he said it again, about self-centered, about self-confident. I started to consider the reliability of his word, and finally i attempt to believe it, accept it. OK, May be he is damn right. I AM A SELF-CENTERED PERSON. Maybe trying to deny this is a good exhibition of me being self-centered. Though i still didn't figure out where did all those confidence things come from?
And then? What should i do next?
How am i going to reduce the damage it might cause me.
I just don't know.
It's just sad for me to hear call yourself a self-centered person.
Worst of all, It will become difficult for me to appreciate compliments about me being generous or thoughtful....