thank you

     好冷好冷，冷到我躲在被子裡用吹風機吹身體然後用被子把熱氣留在裡面....
肚子好餓，飢腸轆轆，讓我想起以前曾經有人願意幫我送熱騰騰的甜湯回家，有人願意三更半夜買NY Begal來給我吃，打從心裡感謝他們，他們對我的好，我ㄧ輩子都會記得的。在人生的旅途上，會有好幾個人出現，又離開，你在人生的哪一個階段碰到他們，又是在他們人生的哪一階段，往往決定了很多事情，這就是所謂的緣分吧。

     那些在我小時候碰到我的人，哈哈，他們好可憐，遇到了一個遲頓又搞不清楚自己感覺的人，但他們還是很努力的讓我多少了解到那究竟是什麼一回事，也還是有開心歡笑難過過。那現在呢?過了這些年，自己哪裏成長了？其實我也不知道，但我確定的是，我更懂得珍惜、更懂得付出、更懂得感恩，也更懂得自己要的是什麼了，也許還是很嫩很幼稚，但我有信心，我會一直更好，然後我也會一直相信我自己的目標，然後一直朝他前進。

Recognition and kiss ass shits.

What am I....a stupid teenager or what, why do I still need recognition from others so much. I hate this feeling especially when getting it seems so necessary but difficult at the same time. I hate it when I try very hard but get nothing back, it's really depressing.

It's even worse when you have to please someone who so obviously doesn't like you however you have to find another way to make it. wtf.. I'm quite dumb in this kind of thing and I'm afraid I could ever learn it well. I dislike myself every time I realize that I'm trying again and I hate myself when I found out what I did was just in vain.....

So depressing and hopeless I am.

all alone...

I’m feeling this feeling now..and that’s really sad and dark.
I need someone who can guide me, encourage me and grow with me.
There was someone but then it just can’t work out.
And now I’m all alone again, though with so many friends around me.
It is not maybe the loneliness bothers me, but the emptiness….