Recognition and kiss ass shits.

What am I....a stupid teenager or what, why do I still need recognition from others so much. I hate this feeling especially when getting it seems so necessary but difficult at the same time. I hate it when I try very hard but get nothing back, it's really depressing.

It's even worse when you have to please someone who so obviously doesn't like you however you have to find another way to make it. wtf.. I'm quite dumb in this kind of thing and I'm afraid I could ever learn it well. I dislike myself every time I realize that I'm trying again and I hate myself when I found out what I did was just in vain.....

So depressing and hopeless I am.